Femmes

CONTEXTO

The following was written between 2 am and 3 am...

Women and me… the everlasting events of a guy that has a natural way to struggle with girl

Simple question, complex answer… what they say is that you must not try to understand them but love them…

In my experience, women are THE subject, they represent my biggest challenge, to the point that I can compare it with the feeling of a soccer player on the verge of kicking the last penalty kick of the World Cup (Yes I make tons of soccer similes in my life!)… because I think of the possible outcomes before I do anything, will I score and get away with all the glory, or will I fail miserably and become overlooked…

These last days I have a quite different mood, all of a sudden I’ve feeling alone, like time is running on and I haven’t yet watched sunset with anyone worth the experience, I have not shared anything with anyone in facto, I could say that this is a stage in my life in which my heart needs some loving hehehe…

See… the thing with me is that I know next to nothing about how to make things happen, I don’t know which might be the first step. In a way I’m too complicated, so I will try to explain what I feel

I do this because it is a way to get it out of my mind… The situation is this… I’m shy, period. Shyness it not a defect I believe, but it can overtake me, it’s a bad situation when I see a girl I like (you know I do have a model), In my life I see them in school… (2 weeks left) but I just see them walking around, I just don’t know how to approach a girl… what goes through my mind is that they are going to think I’m some kind of pervert and it goes like that…

The other weekend I went out with one friend who kind of took the role of tutoring me through that process, we were supposed to go to 2 parties but plans did not turn out as expected because they could not find their friends so we ended up in an antro and well you can’t go there expecting to meet a lot of new people, of course it is like “hey hi, this is Rodolfo… Rodolfo this is “xxxxxxx”……………..” but it is too loud and everyone is with their friends and you know that is not my environment.

DESARROLLO

Exhibit one… We were very close to the bathrooms that night…one of the guys in the group (we were 4), was standing in the entrance of one of them, then a girl comes out and she could not pass, she moved around but this guy would not let her pass… and then simply a conversation arose, the girl turned out to be 18, and experiencing some of her first nights out (yeah sure), it was a quick conversation and that was it but see… I can’t do that, I don’t think it has to be something physically about me, it is just that I lack the confidence to do it, that if I try I will look bad and the girl would say “what the F*** is wrong with this guy”. Then again antros are not my hit.

Exhibit two… So you know days passed and then it was Thursday and I’m walking around my school so I see this Spanish girl that I met long ago and that I recently saw after mass one Sunday… you see I made a post about the situation when you look at a girl, and then you go back to your stuff, but something makes you look back and then she sees you… well that happened that day after mass and it was good, we had a good conversation about personal stuff and that was ok… let’s go back to Thursday, I see her and then she said hi… And well she did remember a lot of things about me which was a surprise, so, we were talking and then I came up with the idea of inviting her to the game, a thing I did in a way (jajajajaja) so she told me that she wanted to go because she doesn’t want to go away without attending to a game, but she could not go the next day, so I told her well “Next week is the final so you have to go…” but I did not ask for her phone number and all that so it was like “ah sale bye”

Actually, I have more material and please switch to Spanish because I just think it’s been enough English.

To be continued…